I didn’t do my August Quote last month. Work was hell. A hell I was expecting and mostly prepared for – but still hell. It’s now the 7th of September and I’m still reeling. Friday, 8/27 was a critical milestone. It was like I was working and living on a stealth aircraft at full tilt – and then whiplash back to the maximum speed of a Prius. I took a few days off, somewhat recouped my mental and physical abilities, got A off to her first day of 2nd grade. Just had a nice long weekend where I spent most of it at Bumbershoot. Now I’m back in the office and having trouble getting into motion. But first! The quote:
Be a source
– Wilferd Peterson
Yeah. That does nothing for me right now. Just not where I am in my life.
During my few days off, before school started, A had a play date with a friend. I had the complete conflict of Getting Stuff Done versus Relaxing. As difficult as it was for me to let go – I decided to ignore my To Do List. I attempted some White Space for the afternoon. The first block of hours I had in quite awhile. I sat “still” for 10 minutes (fidgeting, twirling my hair, looking around the room, etc.) I couldn’t do it. My mind was also racing, and trying to calm down, to listen to what I wanted to do with my block of time. Do I read my book, listen to music? Movie? The weather was nice enough to sit outside for awhile. I ended up grabbing a DVD I got for Christmas and hadn’t watched – Rent filmed live on Broadway. This is one of my favorite musicals ever. I got totally absorbed, lost track of time, laughed, cried, cried some more. Still not completely absorbed as I obsessed about the time and having to pick up A from her play date. So in sum – it was kinda relaxing, for a girl that doesn’t do it well. I need to practice that more. Seriously, the fidgeting and racing mind are not helping my stress levels. A starts back at Hebrew school this Sunday (which means I get my Sunday afternoon’s alone back).
We’ll see how this goes.