I think it’s great that Breast Cancer has become a more prominent cause. Lots of walks and runs and fund raisers. There is even the Clicks for Free Mammograms. Sometimes I even quip that men (boob men or not) should be more involved in a cause that would benefit something they hold so dear to their hearts. Or other body parts.
I’d have to say I’m one of the fortunate ones. I’m young, I’m healthy, I take good care of myself, I have no history of (breast) cancer in my family. I really have no reason to worry.
I had my first mammogram 25 days ago. It came as a surprise because I went in for something else. I thought I would have to wait until 40. Which is really not that far away, certainly closer to 40 than I am to any other age. It’s another rite of passage. THE mammogram. It wasn’t too bad…it certainly puts your breasts in a position that you never thought imaginable. The mammogram didn’t show anything of concern to the radiologist. The ultrasound did.
11 days ago I consulted a breast surgeon. She took the history, she did the exam, she reviewed the films. The good news? Only 10-20% of lumps found are cancerous. My films did not show any typical cancer signs. Plus the odds are in my favor. She believed it was fibrosis-something-or-other. In reviewing all the treatments options – she, Norman and I agreed that it was best to remove it.
3 days ago I had the lump removed. The following day I got the incredible (relieving) news that it was benign.
All along, I really didn’t feel that it was cancer. I want to believe it’s because the odds are in my favor. I also have a tendency to ignore as a coping mechanism. Either way, it’s still freaky. Still nerve wracking. 12:15pm – 1:15pm Tuesday was the longest hour of my year – anxiety, nerves, fear and hope. I never thought the minute would come that they wheeled me into the operating room. And just like that, it was over. Ah the miracle of modern drugs.
Now I’m home recovering. I’ve got my pain killers. I’ve got some down time that I’ve really needed, naps, reading, bad TV. Today I’m easing back into the world by working at home and looking forward to book club tonight with my girls.
As fortunate as I am, it’s still a wake up call.